At 22 I saw a load of people get the same degree as me and somebody else who had worked very, very hard. I had gone days without sleep, studied for hours and sacrificed friends and my sport to get a degree.
I was livid. But then I had been livid many times before. More important than being livid I was at a total loss - All these people had their parents come up to see them graduate - what was the point of little me trying?
This inner voice niggled away at me - "the advantages are given is awesome - you will never succeed" - "some of these people have spent four - ten years in Japan"
I try to motivate myself by thinking I can impress children from disadvantaged backgrounds but think hypnosis will be the next step.
Seeing "everyone"'s parents watching them graduate was torturous indeed.
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